When I write these posts, I try to stay positive and upbeat because all of us have stressors, problems, and trials. And I don’t want to add to it. However, today I need to express myself. I am sad. I am angry. I am…I don’t know.
The doctor told my aunt that she has three to six months to live. He is calling in the pain management team to keep her comfortable until she dies. I saw her on Saturday. She was holding her new grandchild. She has another one on the way, one that she will never see, never hold, and never watch grow up. Because of this I am angry.
From the time I was five, I saw my aunt every day of my life until I left for college. We spent countless time together. She taught me to enjoy music. She taught me how to make popcorn on the stove. She taught me how to find something to laugh at when things were hard. She taught me to hold my head high in the face of adversity and to keep going. She is my confidant. She is my cheerleader. And she loves me unconditionally. Because of this, I am sad.
However, I am lucky. I get to say goodbye, but there are many times that loved ones are lost suddenly. A year and a half ago, I lost my mother-in-law. Lucky for my husband, we called her the night before she passed. My husband and the kids spoke to her and then they hung up without letting me speak. (We had a great relationship.) I said, “Oh, I’ll speak to her tomorrow.” I had no idea that there wouldn’t be another time. That she would die the next day. So, today, I’m asking you to make sure that your loved ones know that you love them. Tell them. Because you might only have today to say it.