Holy Freaking Cow

A while back I joined the Sisters in Crime organization. (No, we don’t commit crimes. It’s a support group for mystery/thriller reader/writers.) One of the major reasons was because they have a sub group that helps mentor writers called the Guppies. There are many perks to being a Guppy, but the one I wanted to take advantage of was the critique group composed of all thriller/mystery writers. And finally it has happened. *Cue the heavenly music and the spotlight beaming down from above.*

We are still in our infancy. In fact, we just barely uploaded our first ten pages. However, I’ve had the opportunity to read the other four member’s pages. There is one member who writes brilliantly. Her writing is crisp, clear, and engaging. It reads like an already published book. After I read her work, I almost jumped up and down. I was saying “WOWZA”, “Holy Freaking Cow,”A-M-A-Z-I-N-G”, and my personal favorite that my mother hates, “Crap On A Cracker”. I was also thinking, “I want to write like that. I want to be that good.” Of course, it also led to a little self-doubt, but I’m still saying “You go, girl”, to her. I know that one day the world will get to read her words, her story, and when you do, be prepared to say, “Holy Freaking Cow.”

Forgotten

  On Sunday, we ate dinner with my husband’s father and his step-mom. It was enjoyable and his step-mom worked hard to provide us with the perfect meal; spinach lasagna, pear salad, garlic bread and a special dessert of homemade strawberry shortcake. She made the biscuits from scratch!

However, there was a minor mishap that upset her. While baking the biscuits, the grandkids were asking her questions, her wheelchair-bound brother needed something, and she was trying to make homemade whip cream. (This was one heck of a dessert!) With all of these things going on, she forgot the biscuits. By the time she remembered them, they were cooked a little longer than she wanted. It upset her because she had worked so hard to make all of us a nice meal.

I understood her frustration, but in a different way. It seems that there are so many things happening in my book that I will be writing or thinking about my manuscript and I’ll realize that I’ve forgotten to tie up a loose end. The other day, I realized that I’d left out an important clue that helps the reader solve the mystery. Um, duh. This has happened several times. However, I’m not worried, like my mother-in-law, I know I will eventually remember it.

What about you?

It was last May that I decided to take writing seriously. That I would try to get this manuscript published. It was also when I realized that I wanted to be a career author, one who wrote until she died. Before this, I had only written thirty pages of this story, which of course, are no longer included. So, I parked my tush in a chair and wrote the first draft, which I completed in November. I loved writing my plot and my characters. And I loved watching the story come alive.

However, now that I’m a year out, I can say that I’m sick of my characters and my plot. I want to be done with it and move on to the other story that is pushing to get out. But I am not done. I need to polish and make it sparkle. What I realized is that no matter how sick of this manuscript I am, I will stay with it until it is done. If I stuck with my old habits, I would have left them to die in the dredges of my hard drive and started on a new manuscript. However, I know that if I took that path, I would regret it. That I would let myself down. So, I continue to park my tush in the chair and work on finishing it.

Have you ever wanted to shelve your manuscript? Why and what did you do?

Unexpected Reaction

If you’ve read my blog for a while, you know that my baby sis. is a high school chemistry teacher and part of her curriculum is a forensic science course. On Tuesday, she had a member of the bomb squad speak. Here’s what she and her principal did not think about; the reaction of the parents dropping off their kids at school. Needless to say, the school received quite a few calls from concerned parents.

I chuckled when she told me that story and it brightened my mood. I was upset because I couldn’t attend due to a conflicting obligation. However, she is spending Saturday night with me while the boys go see The Avengers. And she is going to tell me all about it. *Fist pump in the air.* Yay! I mean my manuscript is about bombs and hopefully I’ll be able to add something that I learned from her.

Muddy Waters

Last week, I changed two major plot points, which required me to follow the threads through the first two hundred and sixty pages. Painful but necessary. On Saturday, I realized that the last one hundred pages will need to be scrapped and that I will be writing it from scratch. I’ve outlined fifty pages of it, a first for me since I write by the seat of my pants. I feel confident that it will make it a stronger ending and a better manuscript over all.

I’m hoping that making these changes before sending the first fifty pages to the two agents who requested them is a wise move. I know that right now they only want fifty pages, but I want to be prepared if they want the whole ms. Maybe I’m putting the horse before the cart. Maybe I should just send them the fifty pages and continue with scrubbing the rest while they take their time reading it. Although, I have a friend who sent her first thirty and twenty minutes later, the agent requested the entire ms. So, maybe I should have the whole thing ready before sending the first fifty pages. I can’t seem to find a clear path. Maybe one decision isn’t better than another.

If you were in my shoes what would you do?

Inspiration

When I run at the gym, I see a quote that speaks volumes to my soul. It inspires me to do more than achieve my goal, it makes me want to crush it.  Here it is, written exactly the way I see it:

conquer your GOALS.  YOU have what it takes.

What quote inspires you?

Book Review: Shadow Spinner by Susan Fletcher

Category: Young Adult

This is story is interwoven through an old Persian tale about Shahrazad. A king betrayed by his wife, kills her. Afraid that he will be betrayed again, he kills his new wife the morning after he marries her. When he takes Shahrazad to wife, she tells him a story but stops in the middle. intrigued, the king keeps her alive the next night so she can finish the story. She does, but starts another one and leaves him hanging again. According to the legend, she does this over a thousand nights sparing village girls the fate of marrying the king.

Shadow Spinner introduces Marjann, a crippled village girl who is also a storyteller. Marjan is selling wares in the palace with her auntie and entertains the children with a story. When Shahrazad’s sister hears it, she drags Marjan to Shahrazad. Shahrazad has run out of stories and asks Marjan for a new one. Marjan gives her one that she heard from an old blind man in the bazaar. It turns out that the king loves the story and wants to hear the rest. Marjan is taken to live in the palace and Shahrazad asks for the rest of the story for she has promised the king she will tell it to him. Marjan doesn’t know the rest. Marjan will risk her life to find the man and get the rest of the story to Shahrazad.

Review: This is a fun easy read. The characters are intriguing and suck you into the story right away. They leave you spellbound until the last word. I would have liked to have seen more action, but overall a good story. Three stars

The Odds

At PPWC, I attended a question/answer panel that had six agents. There were questions about the future of agents, there were questions about publishing versus self-publishing, and there were questions about their day-to-day jobs. I enjoyed the panel and found it enlightening. However, there is one question that stuck in my head and it terrifies me.

“How many queries do you receive and how many new clients do you sign?”

Kristin Nelson’s answer is the one I remember. She said, “Last year I received 30,000 queries. I requested 100 partial/full manuscripts. I signed two new clients.”

The audience gasped and murmured and I almost fainted. So, you can imagine that my elation of having two agents ask for partials has quickly turned to terror. I do not want to squander this incredible opportunity, I have been given. I do not want to be thrust back into the world of querying. So, I am taking what I have learned and revamping my manuscript. I am tightening the writing. I am enhancing the layers of my characters. And I am keeping my fingers crossed that I will be one of the two people signed.

As Hunger Games’ Effie Trinket says, “And may the odds be ever in your favor.”

Heroes, Villians, and Sidekicks

At the Pikes Peak Conference, I took a class by debut author Marie Wu called Heroes, Villians, and Sidekicks. She asked us “what makes a book memorable?” The answer: it is plot or characters. And strong characters linger longer in our minds than a strong plot. Her tips are helpful for first time writers and for those who are trying to add more complexity to their characters. Here are the tidbits that I thought were important:

  • Have some of your protagonist’s weaknesses be the antagonist strengths and vice versa. It will automatically cause tension between the two.
  • If you have a large supporting cast of secondary characters, combine some of them and make them stronger, more memorable.
  • Don’t have your characters too perfect, too good, too bad.
  • Look at it from the antagonists perspective. Maybe s/he thinks that what they are doing is right too.

The last one is my favorite because she illustrated it with a story. She lived in China when the Tiananmen Square massacre occurred. And she spoke about how the Chinese agreed with the government because of the recent revolution and the economic hard times. I had never thought about it from their perspective before and it made me examine my antagonists motives more. In fact, I am going to enhance the ending because of it. Also, I realized that I struggled with my characters being reserved because I am. For my characters to be more authentic, I needed to be a tad more open, which is why I wrote my last blog. I know that because of her class, I will be a better character writer.

What do you do to make your character more memorable?

Undetected

I have an aunt who is not just an aunt. She moved into my house and heart when I was five years old and never left. Last year, she was diagnosed with terminal bone cancer and for the last three months she has been in and out of the hospital. The night before I left for the Pikes Peak conference, she fell and broke her femur. The doctor told my parents that he would need to install several pins and rods into the bone for it to properly heal. A concern because her body is chemo-compromised. The day I pitched my manuscript, I prayed for her, that whatever was meant to happen, would. She survived. However, the doctor found severe osteoporosis, which will speed the cancer’s destruction.
What I am writing, I have not shared with my best friend that I have known since college, nor my friend who I run with or my other friend that I’ve known ten plus years. I do not want to hear the dreaded question “How are you?” For I have played this game before. I played it when my thirty-eight year-old cousin died of brain cancer leaving four children behind. The youngest only two. And when my mother-in-law, whom I adored, unexpectedly died. From them, I have learned that my scientific and church friends do not have the answers. That there are no answers. That there is nothing to heal her. Heal me.

If you see me running, you might mistake the grimace on my face, or the big gulps of air, or the sweat that runs down my face as physical exertion and physical pain. They are not. They are the evidence of what happens to me when I allow myself to feel. To face the truth. The truth I do not want to see.

There are others like me, who bury their emotions six feet under the recesses of their mind. Who smile, laugh, and appear to have an easy, good life. Look closely. For if you do, you just might be able to detect the pain behind the smile.